You are yours, and no one else These are the words you tell yourself When you're awake, lying in bed Pent up with thoughts, wrapped up in your own head Don't go to bed angry Closing your eyes with despise should be a sin You are yours, and no one else These are the words you tell yourself When you're awake, lying in bed Pent up with thoughts, wrapped up in your own head With words you could have said

I've kicked myself so many times the bruises will not heal They fade from black and blue to red, to me it's no big deal My swollen, beaten body isn't much to gaze upon These stubby legs won't do much good, I've nothing to stand on But you, you stay in my mind I will wait here all the time I will stay, I won't stray Until these paths become aligned I am careful, I am careless I am fickle, I am fake As I wonder, as I ponder How many lifetimes it will take I carry so much baggage now the weight gives me distress No quiet voices soothe and numb, I remain a broken mess You look at me in such a way it cuts me to the bone It don't hurt you, I know the pain is mine and mine alone But you, you stay in my mind I will wait here all the time I will stay, I won't stray Until these paths become aligned I am careful, I am careless I am fickle, I am fake As I wonder, as I ponder How many lifetimes it will take Baby, how you broke me, how the stitches came undone Your look is my undoing, I will never be the one So many countless times I've tried to get this off my chest You know how you don't know how I remain a broken mess But you, you stay in my mind I will wait here all the time I will stay, I won't stray Until these paths become aligned I am careful, I am careless I am fickle, I am fake As I wonder, as I ponder How many lifetimes it will take It will take the life I make.

Every day is like a room with white-washed walls A blank slate that's welcome, until that's all there is at all No more phone calls today, all the world's against me I've learned to love stasis, she is my consistency I'll come home when I am ready I'll be back when I am strong And in time I'll be less jaded And in time I won't have to stay away Give me three more days and maybe I'll be fine I need all this time to cross the mountains in my mind No more phone calls, no more faces, eyes, or voices I am starting to wonder if all my vices are my choices And I don't need no medicine but beer and isolation Reaching the bottle's bottom might put pause to my frustration Worry and concern create my cocktail called despair And it seems to me this sadness, it is my occupation I await the day the victor comes to claim me Be it sunlight or the nameless thing, these honest, awful hands will take away

How the best thing I do comes not from me but you It's deceptive, and you're a saint I do what I'm told I'll go back to my getting old And it keeps coming full force And I don't have the strength to resolve And we keep on and keep on and keep on How can we ever repair? There's our problems Never solved them For whatever I surrender I'm demented And presented Something empty Since year thirty For my penance I reminisce And absolve this I am clean, I am clean But you're sterling Been unfurling And I resent you I resent you We've been walking this road to decay And I can't seem to get out of my way For someone who stumbles for days You never knew what not to say It's so hard to get any more sleep When my blood and my wisdom run deep You're stubborn as hell

I'm not giving in today No towel's coming from my way And I don't care what you have to say I'm taking comfort in the fact that you'll decay And I'm sending postcards from the places I want to see Knowing that one day I will be okay with me And I will reinvent the alphabet so that U isn't next to V With arms outstretched in the air I will be calm, I will be I'll be okay No more Saturdays in the basement wishing I could die Against the wall while my friends were out getting high Thinking, "What if I died tonight?" But I've too much time, too much time, I've too much time for this mind Such is my fucking existence Such is my goddamn existence But such is my glorious existence To live, to breathe, and be And I'll be okay

So long Take care This was Never there I've dreamed Your hands Your body Your face And it's difficult when I see you that way When we pass each other every day I will see you always in my mind I would see you even if I was blind Even when days and months pass, I'm still brought back to that place So this is it This is the end Hope that I'll never think of you again Hide my fire from you And it burns hot Long and late in the night I wish I forgot the way it felt To want to be touched by you To want to be held by you To want to be loved by you To want everything from you I can't take it.

When I arrive at the end It's only fair to look back at circumstances Those little strings that fate dangles from And when I wish for another life tied to those strings I will consider the power of chance How any little factor could have ruined this whole thing How this reality could not have been what it came to be So when I return to the end I'll thank all of those circumstances Full strings full of worth For directing, correcting, and shaping me And I was scared once before Believing nothing would ever pan out in the end That all things were worthless Sometimes I wish, looking back I could have done so much more But how much is that worth? So take a break from this place The dust has settled from this race anyway I'll see you soon When you come back, you'll be different And I'll be changed too And together we'll make this better Together I'll see you soon

Centuries from now, all they'll be talking about A girl or a boy that you just couldn't shake You breathe in the air to make room for your head But the visions, the smells, their hand at arm's length, it all sticks And you are doomed to think of nothing but another To sigh and roll over in bed, longing for an embrace Yes, you are doomed to could-haves and regrets, and all the uncertainties Forever plagued by the concept of what you leave behind Her hair that fell in grace, the smile on his face The wonder of how much pain this mortal body can take You pride yourself on all of your hard work The genius that flows in your veins, the life that could You've come so far, and the start keeps on falling back If this was the end, would you be content with what you left behind? And it is true that there are billions of us Remembered for all of our quirks, and all our mistakes Yes, it is true that there are so many of us out there But for you to be you and be here, what will it take?