I want to know what love is
Before "I am" becomes "I was"
I want to feel the drive
The need to try
I want to be in twilight
In peace with silence
Without the barren hum
I want to live before I die

I want to go outside
Be in all the sunshine and the world
I want to feel compassion in my soul
To know my dreams still matter
Tune out the chatter
That's buzzing constantly
I want something to make me whole

Can you hear me?
Are you listening?
I want something defining
Know it's out there
Don't want to be scared
Going after that silver lining
In my heartache
And what I can't take
There's truth and hope that's showing
Through the pain and
All that remains, I
Feel deep inside I'm growing

And when you get to heaven
Can you tell me how it was?
I want to know that things will soon be fine
And when I look behind me
And see the memories that feel so distant now
Remember where I'm at, there is a sign

To know that there's a meaning
To everything that's happened since
Under the suffering I've always known
There's someone out there for me
To share my glory, but until that day
I ask for strength to be alone

I'm suffocating
Spending hours laying around
Fell into fetal positions
Can't take the isolation

Do you hear me?
Are you listening?
I want this everlasting
Something that's real
That I can feel
Unlike the spell you're casting
In my heartache
And what I can't take
There's truth and hope that's showing
Through the pain and
All that remains, I
Feel deep inside I'm growing

Shades of warmth and growth and comfort
Loving arms, embraces full
I know this is my safety bubble
Need the strength to finally let it go
And there, the thing I've felt
I wanted all these years
Is not quite the thing it needed to be
Perhaps this time I'll truly set me free

I finally knew what love was
What caring about another meant
So much it meant I had to let them go
But you should know inside
Deep down inside, there's a part that still cares
It always will, I thought that you should know
I want to leave the fear behind
And take that first step forward
To make the choice to be in better health
A history of putting others first
Doesn't seem to serve me well
I want to finally choose myself

I want to find the love inside me and feed it forever and ever
I want to heal the child in my soul
However long it takes to treat the pain that aches and remains
I'm gonna be the piece that makes me whole