Here I am, in the classroom again
You show up, the new pupil
I'm taking notes up on the board
You take up arms, get too comfortable

You call me out, you challenge me
And at first I find it cute
I'm open raw, upset, no more glee
I'm not your pawn, and your point is moot

I'm learning to live without you
One day I'll learn to love without you
But all I want to do is learn from you
All I want to do is be your fool
All I want is to have you near me again
If I did things right maybe I'd still have you

I know I have my part to blame
You poked and prodded, I pushed back
Where I saw bounds, you just saw walls
For you I fear I'd break them all

I'm at the mirror, not myself
Wearing those shorts of yours again
New pair of glasses, someone else
A beard to rival his back then

I'm learning to live without you
One day I'll learn to love without you
But all I want to do is learn from you
All I want to do is be your fool
All I want is to have you near me again
If I did things right maybe I'd still have you
But you've ruled me out as another fool

I would travel in your pocket
If it meant another night
I would call you again
If it guaranteed another fight

Would you even recognize me?
Would you even pick up?
A child in a man's body
Or another reason I feel numb

I want to feel how I did back then
I want to be enough
I want you to care more like when you did
I want you to grow up

I want you to give a fuck

You couldn't be there for me
Angry and pissed
Guess I want someone
Who doesn't exist
I'm always unhappy
My soul is bereft
I know that it's over but why haven't I left?

I'm learning to live without you
One day I'll learn to love without you
And on that day I'll know we're really through
Thought I did my best with what I knew